Monday, April 4, 2016

Permanent Job

Most of the posts here are for you, the reader.  But, every once in a while, I write one for me.  Well, for future me.

This is one of those. 

It is weird, sitting here on the first day of a permanent job.  I know, I know, I've done this before.  I had a "permanent" job at Holland America Lines.  I also had one at Stafford Creek and look how those turned out.  I lasted six months and three weeks respectively. 

I think that is the only way I can do this though. I have to know that permanent, doesn't mean permanent. I have to believe there is an out or I won't do it.  Talk about commitment-phobic.

Nursing has never been a calling for me.  I didn't dream of becoming a nurse for years. The idea never even occurred to me until I was already past thirty. I think I do well enough as a nurse and I know I can stay a nurse until after the boys are grown, but I'm always looking for a way out.

Always.

So, I write a book.  I plan a mushroom farm.  I plot world domination. I always look for the next thing.

I'm always chasing something.

I don't know if I can ever catch it.  Or if any of that matters. 

So, buy the book.  Maybe I can make it as a writer and see if that works.

4 comments:

  1. I hear ya. I did plan to be a nurse... and I'm still always looking for a way out!

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  2. Traveling helped.

    I'm still waiting for someone to offer to pay me a full time salary just for being a hell of a guy. If you know anyone...

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  3. I go into robot mode at work and try to essentially be emotionless and just carry out orders........It's the only way to continue to be an ER nurse day in and day out. We have good jobs, get paid well, and have awesome flexibility, those are the only things that keep me doing it.

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  4. I go into robot mode at work and try to essentially be emotionless and just carry out orders........It's the only way to continue to be an ER nurse day in and day out. We have good jobs, get paid well, and have awesome flexibility, those are the only things that keep me doing it.

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